Deprivation is an installation made up of nine black and white fabric scrolls, primarily composed of self-portraits. The work is printed in two sizes: the larger scrolls measure 40 x 60 inches, while the smaller ones are 22 x 60 inches. Each scroll is an inkjet print on cotton fabric, featuring photographs of myself. In three of the images, I am wearing a white dress; in others, only parts of my body—such as my hands or face—are visible, often in the context of nudity.
Through self-portraits, I aim to explore how pain and trauma shaped my experiences. Each scroll is adorned with Persian calligraphy, written in acrylic ink with a brush. The text is a reflection of my personal history—years ago, I was mentally manipulated and abused by my partner. The writing represents imaginary dialogues between us, during which I was deprived of my own reality, yet held captive by my love for him. While each text tells a unique story, all of them reference his betrayal and my fear of losing him.
The scrolls hang from cables that connect two parallel walls. Four cables hold two scrolls each, while the central cable holds one large fabric, depicting me embracing the absence of my partner. Upon first viewing, not all of the photographs are immediately visible. The audience must walk through the scrolls to view the photographs and texts.
As the audience moves through the scrolls, they will witness my gradual unveiling, as I begin clothed in a white dress and, as they walk further, see me naked. This transition mirrors the revealing of my inner self, both physically and emotionally.
